Not sure about this...

[ostarella]

I'm beginning to think I'm not "built" for NaNo's writing style. I have been trying to continue with my story, but I keep going back to the first part I wrote and wanting to toss it and start over. I can't just write and keep going. I'm a "fiddler". And I think I've just been writing that way for so long... it drives me nuts knowing that what I've already written isn't going to work with the rest of the story. And I know - it all gets edited afterwards, but I find myself thinking, well, what a waste of time to write it to begin with then. No offense to JFM or all the other writers who can do that - JFM obviously has got that "method" down pat. ;-) But I just don't function that way. I think part of it is the idea of looking at the 50K words as one big chunk of crap to be reworked, instead of doing that "rework" as I go. Already I've changed my mind as to what I want from the story at least four times - and the damn beginning only works with one of those, and then not that well.

So I guess I'm going to drop out - it's not as if I *can't* write a long story, after all.  ;-)  But I have too many other irons in the fire right now, not the least of which is "Covenant", and "Tess", and a shitload of "homefire" issues to attend to. Trying to write in a way that's completely foreign and frustrating to me just makes me not want to write at all - and I don't want to spoil the "fun".

I know the above just sounds like a load of excuses, but I feel much less frustrated and tense just having decided. That in itself tells me I'm making the right choice. "Hard" is one thing - "stress inducing" is another. ;-)

Comments

[billy-shriner.livejournal.com]

It is a shame... but I suppose if you're used to doing something one way and it works for you.

I suppose I did Nano when I was very new at writing... so I wasn't set in my ways of how I liked to write... and it just taught me not to procrastinate over that first chapter. Because that's what I usually did. There's no rule in NaNo to say you still can't go back and change something ;o) or add notes... still word count :D

I'm still different to you and JFM... because I can't start posting a story until I've "finished" it - i.e. given it an ending. I know it will still need work and editing etc. But I have to have the story there before I can start posting for others to see.

The only time I kinda did do it was with Four Wishes... but I did have an ending, just needed help on the middle at the time.

So does this mean we'll be getting another instalment of Covenant then? No slacking girl!

[ostarella.livejournal.com]

So does this mean we'll be getting another instalment of Covenant then?

Oh yeah - have Murdock's first section pretty well figured out in my head. Just have to get that opening paragraph figured out and then - away we go! LOL

Well, at least until I get to Hannibal and Face discussing the robbery - have to do some DVD watching first... :p

[billy-shriner.livejournal.com]

oh goodie... right better catch up with TJ if I've got C to also start reading ;o)

[beckyblack]

I like the idea that the best time to do NaNoWriMo is when you're still too inexperienced at writing to know better than to try something so crazy! :D

[billy-shriner.livejournal.com]

yeah - I still can't believe you talked me into it!!!