It's Over

[ostarella]

My son left about 20 minutes ago. My brother's driving him up to the airport. We had a lot of fun the last week, watching Lost episodes until 2 or 3 o'clock in the morning, rearranging the dining room so we could put up the tree and decorate. My brother came down Wednesday night so we had the whole family together for three full days - playing Hero Quest for hours on end and every few minutes chasing Fang out of the Christmas tree. To him, it was cat heaven with all the tempting bright things hanging from the branches. And we ended up not going to my niece's house, just because the weather was so unpredictable.

But now, of course, comes the hard part. It always seems like life is just on "temporary mode" when John's not here and only gets into gear when he's home. But I'm thinking about my New Year's resolutions more seriously - and realistically. I've gotten pictures of RVs posted above my desk - to remind me of why I need to do the stuff on my To Do List. It's just too easy to get bogged down in the day to day crapola or overwhelmed by the sheer amount of things to do - so having those pictures up will remind me to step back, think about that goal - and then work on the next thing on my list and the hell with the rest of it until its turn.

But, for today, I'm going to wallow in a bit of Self Pity and Lonesome, watch my new Wizard of Oz dvds and try to forget that my son won't be back for another six months...

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[beckyblack]

I'm feeling a bit that way myself after coming home from seeing the family. Seeing my brother's kids that much taller and more grown up looking than last time. And it's just more fun when I go visit my Dad these days - for reasons too long to go into here! But time flies. I'll see them all again soon enough, I'm sure.