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Not sure about this...
I'm beginning to think I'm not "built" for NaNo's writing style. I have been trying to continue with my story, but I keep going back to the first part I wrote and wanting to toss it and start over. I can't just write and keep going. I'm a "fiddler". And I think I've just been writing that way for so long... it drives me nuts knowing that what I've already written isn't going to work with the rest of the story. And I know - it all gets edited afterwards, but I find myself thinking, well, what a waste of time to write it to begin with then. No offense to JFM or all the other writers who can do that - JFM obviously has got that "method" down pat. ;-) But I just don't function that way. I think part of it is the idea of looking at the 50K words as one big chunk of crap to be reworked, instead of doing that "rework" as I go. Already I've changed my mind as to what I want from the story at least four times - and the damn beginning only works with one of those, and then not that well.
So I guess I'm going to drop out - it's not as if I *can't* write a long story, after all. ;-) But I have too many other irons in the fire right now, not the least of which is "Covenant", and "Tess", and a shitload of "homefire" issues to attend to. Trying to write in a way that's completely foreign and frustrating to me just makes me not want to write at all - and I don't want to spoil the "fun".
I know the above just sounds like a load of excuses, but I feel much less frustrated and tense just having decided. That in itself tells me I'm making the right choice. "Hard" is one thing - "stress inducing" is another. ;-)
So I guess I'm going to drop out - it's not as if I *can't* write a long story, after all. ;-) But I have too many other irons in the fire right now, not the least of which is "Covenant", and "Tess", and a shitload of "homefire" issues to attend to. Trying to write in a way that's completely foreign and frustrating to me just makes me not want to write at all - and I don't want to spoil the "fun".
I know the above just sounds like a load of excuses, but I feel much less frustrated and tense just having decided. That in itself tells me I'm making the right choice. "Hard" is one thing - "stress inducing" is another. ;-)
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With me I feel more worried that I'll polish up an earlier part and then want to do something later that that contradicts that part I've done a load of work on. That could make me not go in a direction that would be good for the story. Not that I get a lot of that happening, since I work with an outline too, so will solve most plot problems before I start. It tends to be more character things that go that way.
Anyway, there's no right or wrong way to write a story, the end result is what matters, the reader sure doesn't care how it was done.
Anyway, at this rate, I think I'm going to write enough for both of us. ;-)
I'm going to un-buddy you on the site - but don't worry, that doesn't mean I don't like you any more! :D Just there's a limit on how many buddies can be seen on the writing buddies page and I've got too many already. Needs some culling. :D
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I'm hopeless... :D
But I'm going to keep the icon - the story will get written over time - and I may post it on MadBetas for anyone who wants to take a look at it. ;-)
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Once a week is just frequent enough not to lose momemntum on it. I'll be thinking about it during the week and once I get to Sunday it'll be ready to come flowing out - hopefully! That thinking time has proved valuable to that project.
I can work on it other times of course, if feeling inspired, or I have some free days. Or the way I did at lunchtimes in October, getting a few hundred words here and there, along with my Sunday sessions. That really added up fast.
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