It's HOT!

Jun. 6th, 2011 02:02 pm
ostarella: (Now what)
And muggy. It's been in the 80s and 90s the last three days, and humid as hell - the type of weather we shouldn't be having for at least another month yet. God. How can it go from way below average temps to way above average temps in less than a week? WTF?

Found out my son is coming back the week of the 4th (July), which is great news. I don't know if I'll be able to get time off or not, but if I rearrange my sleeping to the mornings, he'll be sleeping then too, so it probably won't be so bad. At least he's getting home!

Does mean not going to Chicago the end of July for the con, though. What with the dental work, the truck repair, the plumbing (did I mention the upstairs bathroom pipes decided to give up the ghost? Had Niagra Falls in the kitchen >: ), and now with John coming back, I just won't have the funds available. So I'll be watching to see what's going on in the fall - if I live that long...

It's HOT!

Jun. 6th, 2011 02:02 pm
ostarella: (Now what)
And muggy. It's been in the 80s and 90s the last three days, and humid as hell - the type of weather we shouldn't be having for at least another month yet. God. How can it go from way below average temps to way above average temps in less than a week? WTF?

Found out my son is coming back the week of the 4th (July), which is great news. I don't know if I'll be able to get time off or not, but if I rearrange my sleeping to the mornings, he'll be sleeping then too, so it probably won't be so bad. At least he's getting home!

Does mean not going to Chicago the end of July for the con, though. What with the dental work, the truck repair, the plumbing (did I mention the upstairs bathroom pipes decided to give up the ghost? Had Niagra Falls in the kitchen >: ), and now with John coming back, I just won't have the funds available. So I'll be watching to see what's going on in the fall - if I live that long...

Misc stuff

May. 9th, 2011 01:46 pm
ostarella: (Default)
Just uploaded the latest for the Directory (shadowwalker.info/archives_updates.html  It's getting a bit cumbersome, since there are sooooo many (not just new stories, but updates to WIPs, new links, etc). I really need to figure out a site search engine, too, but everything seems so complicated. Any suggestions welcome.

My brother is up in the Cities again today. He goes up once a week or so, to do lawyer-type stuff, and then goes to his darkroom for a few hours. I have to admit, I like those days. Nothing against Bro, but it does give me a little breather from people. After living alone for so long, having another body constantly around ups the stress levels. So I'm getting a few odds and ends taken care of that aren't easily done when he's around.

Having to keep a closer eye on Fang now. Don't know if I mentioned this before, but she got out a couple weeks ago. We usually left the backdoor unlocked when Petey went out to do his thing (so he could bang it open when he was ready to come in) and then just closed the kitchen door so Fang wouldn't get out there. Unfortunately, she found an alternate route and ended up sleeping in the toolhouse overnight. Just lucky she remembered her old haunts. :p I didn't realize she was missing because she's typically sleeping up in Bro's room when I go to work, so it wasn't until she didn't show up when I got home that I got worried. Boy, she came bouncing down from the rafters when I went out looking for her, very loudly chastising me for leaving her out all night.

She's not going to be a very big cat, though. Shoulders to butt she's not quite 11", and still weighs less than 5 pounds. She's about two now, so I figure that's as big as she'll ever get. Petey is my "Big Baby" and Fang is my "Tiny Baby". Yeah, I'm allowed to get mushy about the animals, so there! :p

Have been having the strangest dreams lately. One was my dad and I hunting down and killing these HUGE spiders and centipedes; another involved my dad and I trying to build something, but I can't remember all the details. Yet another I slammed sideways into a semi-trailer with my truck, flattening it like a pancake, and then trying to call my dad so I could get to work. Probably a combination of stress and my dad's death anniversary coming up. I've been doing way too much thinking about that.

We have a ton of birds in the yard now. My brother's seriously concerned about the amount of birdseed they're going through! LOL Goldfinches, purple finches, cardinals, bluejays, purple grackles, crows,  indigo buntings, grosbeaks, catbirds, mourning doves, a trio of Baltimore Orioles the last couple of days, several different kinds of sparrows - and yesterday, a hawk, sitting in one of our maple trees! Never saw that before. Can't hear yourself think outside for all the singing :D

Anyway... hoping to get to a con the end of July, to see DB again. My son can't make it home for his birthday this year (due to the new job - which he's doing very well at, and is already in line for a promotion!) so I feel like I need something nice happening. Maybe I'll take a couple extra days and take a long route home after. I think part of my ongoing dissatisfaction/depression is just the fact I haven't been able to let my wanderlust take over. I just wasn't meant to stay in one place for long. I need a home port, not an anchor holding me in place.

Misc stuff

May. 9th, 2011 01:46 pm
ostarella: (Default)
Just uploaded the latest for the Directory (shadowwalker.info/archives_updates.html  It's getting a bit cumbersome, since there are sooooo many (not just new stories, but updates to WIPs, new links, etc). I really need to figure out a site search engine, too, but everything seems so complicated. Any suggestions welcome.

My brother is up in the Cities again today. He goes up once a week or so, to do lawyer-type stuff, and then goes to his darkroom for a few hours. I have to admit, I like those days. Nothing against Bro, but it does give me a little breather from people. After living alone for so long, having another body constantly around ups the stress levels. So I'm getting a few odds and ends taken care of that aren't easily done when he's around.

Having to keep a closer eye on Fang now. Don't know if I mentioned this before, but she got out a couple weeks ago. We usually left the backdoor unlocked when Petey went out to do his thing (so he could bang it open when he was ready to come in) and then just closed the kitchen door so Fang wouldn't get out there. Unfortunately, she found an alternate route and ended up sleeping in the toolhouse overnight. Just lucky she remembered her old haunts. :p I didn't realize she was missing because she's typically sleeping up in Bro's room when I go to work, so it wasn't until she didn't show up when I got home that I got worried. Boy, she came bouncing down from the rafters when I went out looking for her, very loudly chastising me for leaving her out all night.

She's not going to be a very big cat, though. Shoulders to butt she's not quite 11", and still weighs less than 5 pounds. She's about two now, so I figure that's as big as she'll ever get. Petey is my "Big Baby" and Fang is my "Tiny Baby". Yeah, I'm allowed to get mushy about the animals, so there! :p

Have been having the strangest dreams lately. One was my dad and I hunting down and killing these HUGE spiders and centipedes; another involved my dad and I trying to build something, but I can't remember all the details. Yet another I slammed sideways into a semi-trailer with my truck, flattening it like a pancake, and then trying to call my dad so I could get to work. Probably a combination of stress and my dad's death anniversary coming up. I've been doing way too much thinking about that.

We have a ton of birds in the yard now. My brother's seriously concerned about the amount of birdseed they're going through! LOL Goldfinches, purple finches, cardinals, bluejays, purple grackles, crows,  indigo buntings, grosbeaks, catbirds, mourning doves, a trio of Baltimore Orioles the last couple of days, several different kinds of sparrows - and yesterday, a hawk, sitting in one of our maple trees! Never saw that before. Can't hear yourself think outside for all the singing :D

Anyway... hoping to get to a con the end of July, to see DB again. My son can't make it home for his birthday this year (due to the new job - which he's doing very well at, and is already in line for a promotion!) so I feel like I need something nice happening. Maybe I'll take a couple extra days and take a long route home after. I think part of my ongoing dissatisfaction/depression is just the fact I haven't been able to let my wanderlust take over. I just wasn't meant to stay in one place for long. I need a home port, not an anchor holding me in place.
ostarella: (Goals)
Had some de-stressing talks with my brother over the weekend. While he's planning on moving down here, he said he wouldn't be living here full-time. He plans on traveling, possibly even getting a couple time-shares in different locations. So this would be just his 'home base', as it were, instead of living in the Cities. So no permanent "other body in the house". :D

In conjunction with that, we were trying to figure out where "my space" can be (where I can have my computer and be able to smoke without bothering him) and we decided that the downstairs back bedroom would be the best. It currently has a huge antique bed and dresser in it, taking up almost all the floor space, along with a ton of my stuff I've just been storing in there. But we agreed (again!) that we would either sell the set, give it to the local historical society, or just put it in storage until we decided what to do with it. (It's a Victorian style, with 8 foot headboard and marble top dresser, so not something you just put out on the curb :D)  But we have a twin bed and mattress that I can then put in there, with plenty of room for my desk and additional shelving for all my supplies - and still have room for a small table so I can actually have work space when I'm printing things out and rearranging stories.

Just the idea of having my own space, where I can close the doors and not be disturbed, with all my books and reference materials at hand (instead of stored here and there)... I'm getting so excited about it! Almost as good as having the toolhouse or bus for my 'stuff'. :D Windows on two walls looking nowhere except out on the gardens, one door to the main house, the other to the downstairs bathroom - back of the house so I can easily ignore anything else going on in the house... It also helps that it's one of the warmest rooms during the winter - I fully intend to have my desk in front of the heat vent!

Only downside is that the TV won't be there for white noise - but I can live with that. ;-)
ostarella: (Goals)
Had some de-stressing talks with my brother over the weekend. While he's planning on moving down here, he said he wouldn't be living here full-time. He plans on traveling, possibly even getting a couple time-shares in different locations. So this would be just his 'home base', as it were, instead of living in the Cities. So no permanent "other body in the house". :D

In conjunction with that, we were trying to figure out where "my space" can be (where I can have my computer and be able to smoke without bothering him) and we decided that the downstairs back bedroom would be the best. It currently has a huge antique bed and dresser in it, taking up almost all the floor space, along with a ton of my stuff I've just been storing in there. But we agreed (again!) that we would either sell the set, give it to the local historical society, or just put it in storage until we decided what to do with it. (It's a Victorian style, with 8 foot headboard and marble top dresser, so not something you just put out on the curb :D)  But we have a twin bed and mattress that I can then put in there, with plenty of room for my desk and additional shelving for all my supplies - and still have room for a small table so I can actually have work space when I'm printing things out and rearranging stories.

Just the idea of having my own space, where I can close the doors and not be disturbed, with all my books and reference materials at hand (instead of stored here and there)... I'm getting so excited about it! Almost as good as having the toolhouse or bus for my 'stuff'. :D Windows on two walls looking nowhere except out on the gardens, one door to the main house, the other to the downstairs bathroom - back of the house so I can easily ignore anything else going on in the house... It also helps that it's one of the warmest rooms during the winter - I fully intend to have my desk in front of the heat vent!

Only downside is that the TV won't be there for white noise - but I can live with that. ;-)
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One more night of work - I traded days with one of the guys because he had a party to go to, so this will be the fourth in a row. Yuck! I am soooo glad I didn't put in for full time work - I like working no more than two days in a row! This guy mentioned that one of the gals I work with was looking for someone to trade with later in October - but that would mean working five days in a row - NO WAY! Okay, I admit it - I'm spoiled! LOL I think it would be different if the work day wasn't so long. 10-1/2 hours (commute, lunch, actual work) is just too much. I have way too much stuff to do at home and I'm too wiped out without a day or two break.

Anyway - slept too late yesterday to call the store in town, so that's on Monday's list To Do. As well as getting the application for the local grocery store. It's like planning on doing my grocery shopping after work - good intentions but by the time the work day is over, I just want to go home and sleep! But it only takes maybe half an hour to fill out the app and get to the library for a printout of my resume, so not like it's going to take days to get it accomplished.

My brother didn't come down this weekend - after looking at the road closings and detours (due to flooding) he decided it wasn't worth an extra hour (or more) driving time, esp since the weather was going to be crappy yet (so no chance of doing yard work). One town was under water Wednesday night (our WalMart had already trucked in almost $2000 worth of toothbrushes, toothpaste, deodorant, and other hygiene products to all the people sheltered at the high school) and the town was still closed this morning to everyone except actual residents. I am soooo glad I live on a high hill. I can't imagine living through that and trying to clean up and pick up the pieces afterward. I helped with cleanup years ago when Rochester got flooded (similar situation - 8" of rain in less than 24 hours) and oh man... it's just unbelievable.

Muffy's still hanging in there - some days I swear I'm going to check on her and find she's gone; other days she acts like she's still a pup. What a roller-coaster... (She just rolled off the couch - again - so had to give her some loving up, poor baby...)

Sooo - housecleaning this week, as my son is coming home Thursday for his 10 year class reunion. It's a big deal - first graduating class of the new high school, class of 2000, yada yada yada. Huge parade even. He's getting a rental car so he can stay at home and just drive up to the city for the festivities - I told him I was fine with that as long as he wasn't going to be drinking. Which he isn't. He doesn't drink much at all - an occasional glass of wine with a meal but that's about it. Which makes me happy overall. But it'll be good to see him again, even if I won't see that much of him until Sunday.

My brother won't be down next weekend either - other than bringing John down from the airport and then taking him back again on Sunday. He's got a photograph in an exhibition!!! He's been into large format photography for a couple years now, and his work is finally starting to pay off. I'm so proud of him. :D But he has to attend the exhibition for a while, of course, and then he and a couple photographer buddies are going to a couple other exhibitions (and this was planned before we knew when John was coming home) so he just can't come down.

Okay - about time to hit the rack before work - then tomorrow I've got a couple crits to get done (Sorry for the delay, Billy!) before I get started on the drudge house work... Busy week ahead!
ostarella: (Default)
One more night of work - I traded days with one of the guys because he had a party to go to, so this will be the fourth in a row. Yuck! I am soooo glad I didn't put in for full time work - I like working no more than two days in a row! This guy mentioned that one of the gals I work with was looking for someone to trade with later in October - but that would mean working five days in a row - NO WAY! Okay, I admit it - I'm spoiled! LOL I think it would be different if the work day wasn't so long. 10-1/2 hours (commute, lunch, actual work) is just too much. I have way too much stuff to do at home and I'm too wiped out without a day or two break.

Anyway - slept too late yesterday to call the store in town, so that's on Monday's list To Do. As well as getting the application for the local grocery store. It's like planning on doing my grocery shopping after work - good intentions but by the time the work day is over, I just want to go home and sleep! But it only takes maybe half an hour to fill out the app and get to the library for a printout of my resume, so not like it's going to take days to get it accomplished.

My brother didn't come down this weekend - after looking at the road closings and detours (due to flooding) he decided it wasn't worth an extra hour (or more) driving time, esp since the weather was going to be crappy yet (so no chance of doing yard work). One town was under water Wednesday night (our WalMart had already trucked in almost $2000 worth of toothbrushes, toothpaste, deodorant, and other hygiene products to all the people sheltered at the high school) and the town was still closed this morning to everyone except actual residents. I am soooo glad I live on a high hill. I can't imagine living through that and trying to clean up and pick up the pieces afterward. I helped with cleanup years ago when Rochester got flooded (similar situation - 8" of rain in less than 24 hours) and oh man... it's just unbelievable.

Muffy's still hanging in there - some days I swear I'm going to check on her and find she's gone; other days she acts like she's still a pup. What a roller-coaster... (She just rolled off the couch - again - so had to give her some loving up, poor baby...)

Sooo - housecleaning this week, as my son is coming home Thursday for his 10 year class reunion. It's a big deal - first graduating class of the new high school, class of 2000, yada yada yada. Huge parade even. He's getting a rental car so he can stay at home and just drive up to the city for the festivities - I told him I was fine with that as long as he wasn't going to be drinking. Which he isn't. He doesn't drink much at all - an occasional glass of wine with a meal but that's about it. Which makes me happy overall. But it'll be good to see him again, even if I won't see that much of him until Sunday.

My brother won't be down next weekend either - other than bringing John down from the airport and then taking him back again on Sunday. He's got a photograph in an exhibition!!! He's been into large format photography for a couple years now, and his work is finally starting to pay off. I'm so proud of him. :D But he has to attend the exhibition for a while, of course, and then he and a couple photographer buddies are going to a couple other exhibitions (and this was planned before we knew when John was coming home) so he just can't come down.

Okay - about time to hit the rack before work - then tomorrow I've got a couple crits to get done (Sorry for the delay, Billy!) before I get started on the drudge house work... Busy week ahead!
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I have Thursday, Sunday and Monday nights off, so this is my weeked ;-)  And as usual, I am soooo happy it's here. I've applied for a housekeeping job at the local nursing home - part-time and 20 minutes away - if I walk. :D  They didn't list the pay, so even if I do get called for an interview, or better yet, get offered the job, it would depend on that. I can work very cheap - but I still have to have X amount to accomplish my goals. But the idea of working in town, no driving except in really bad weather... yeah. That's exciting.

Especially after yesterday. I try not to do anything really strenuous on the days I do work, simply because of the physical requirements at work combined with it being graveyard shift. But the brush dump is only open on Wednesday evenings (so I'd have to get up extra early) and the second Saturday of each month. And since we had a ton to haul out (three pickup loads) I had no choice. It took almost 4 hours to get the tree limbs cut to fit in the pickup, and load the trees and brush and then haul it out and unload it again. But it's all gone now, thank God. But I went to bed as soon as we finished, and when that alarm went off - oh gawd, how I wanted to call in sick and go back to sleep! Just grateful it was Saturday night - typically a very easy night because most of the freight is for the "specials" of the coming week, which we don't have to stock.

So today I'm tired but not too terribly sore. A lot of scratches on my arms and hands, though. And one gouge about an inch below my larynx where a branch bit back :p Pretty good bruise around it, as well. So that was a little scary...

My brother isn't here either - he left before I got home this morning to take care of some business. And he won't be down next weekend as he's going on a photo 'safari' for about four days. He and a group of fellow large format enthusiasts are driving out to South Dakota, taking pictures along the way and critiquing them. They're going very close to Webster, where our mom was born, so if he has time he's going to stop in and do a little genealogical research for me :D

So anywhooooo... over my weekend I'm going to get some more yardwork done (much easier with the brush gone) and some (a LOT) of writing. Almost completed the next chapter of Covenant - then only 8-10 more chapters and it should be finished. FINALLY!!!! Although I'm toying with a sequel of sorts - just taking a lot of various scenes from the show and rewriting them to reflect the Covenant history. Could be kinda fun...

And have several characters figured out for my original writing - and how they'll interact. Still don't know precisely what I want the focus of the story to be - what happens that these characters have to deal with. I've had a few ideas but I immediately think of some other book (or movie) that had something that's too similar. I think I'll probably go through some old (like early 1900s) newspapers and see what I can modernize. Things back then weren't so "global" - which, to me, makes them more interesting.

So, with nothing else to say - off to my typing! :D
ostarella: (Default)
I have Thursday, Sunday and Monday nights off, so this is my weeked ;-)  And as usual, I am soooo happy it's here. I've applied for a housekeeping job at the local nursing home - part-time and 20 minutes away - if I walk. :D  They didn't list the pay, so even if I do get called for an interview, or better yet, get offered the job, it would depend on that. I can work very cheap - but I still have to have X amount to accomplish my goals. But the idea of working in town, no driving except in really bad weather... yeah. That's exciting.

Especially after yesterday. I try not to do anything really strenuous on the days I do work, simply because of the physical requirements at work combined with it being graveyard shift. But the brush dump is only open on Wednesday evenings (so I'd have to get up extra early) and the second Saturday of each month. And since we had a ton to haul out (three pickup loads) I had no choice. It took almost 4 hours to get the tree limbs cut to fit in the pickup, and load the trees and brush and then haul it out and unload it again. But it's all gone now, thank God. But I went to bed as soon as we finished, and when that alarm went off - oh gawd, how I wanted to call in sick and go back to sleep! Just grateful it was Saturday night - typically a very easy night because most of the freight is for the "specials" of the coming week, which we don't have to stock.

So today I'm tired but not too terribly sore. A lot of scratches on my arms and hands, though. And one gouge about an inch below my larynx where a branch bit back :p Pretty good bruise around it, as well. So that was a little scary...

My brother isn't here either - he left before I got home this morning to take care of some business. And he won't be down next weekend as he's going on a photo 'safari' for about four days. He and a group of fellow large format enthusiasts are driving out to South Dakota, taking pictures along the way and critiquing them. They're going very close to Webster, where our mom was born, so if he has time he's going to stop in and do a little genealogical research for me :D

So anywhooooo... over my weekend I'm going to get some more yardwork done (much easier with the brush gone) and some (a LOT) of writing. Almost completed the next chapter of Covenant - then only 8-10 more chapters and it should be finished. FINALLY!!!! Although I'm toying with a sequel of sorts - just taking a lot of various scenes from the show and rewriting them to reflect the Covenant history. Could be kinda fun...

And have several characters figured out for my original writing - and how they'll interact. Still don't know precisely what I want the focus of the story to be - what happens that these characters have to deal with. I've had a few ideas but I immediately think of some other book (or movie) that had something that's too similar. I think I'll probably go through some old (like early 1900s) newspapers and see what I can modernize. Things back then weren't so "global" - which, to me, makes them more interesting.

So, with nothing else to say - off to my typing! :D

It's Over

Dec. 27th, 2009 05:14 am
ostarella: (Thoughts)
My son left about 20 minutes ago. My brother's driving him up to the airport. We had a lot of fun the last week, watching Lost episodes until 2 or 3 o'clock in the morning, rearranging the dining room so we could put up the tree and decorate. My brother came down Wednesday night so we had the whole family together for three full days - playing Hero Quest for hours on end and every few minutes chasing Fang out of the Christmas tree. To him, it was cat heaven with all the tempting bright things hanging from the branches. And we ended up not going to my niece's house, just because the weather was so unpredictable.

But now, of course, comes the hard part. It always seems like life is just on "temporary mode" when John's not here and only gets into gear when he's home. But I'm thinking about my New Year's resolutions more seriously - and realistically. I've gotten pictures of RVs posted above my desk - to remind me of why I need to do the stuff on my To Do List. It's just too easy to get bogged down in the day to day crapola or overwhelmed by the sheer amount of things to do - so having those pictures up will remind me to step back, think about that goal - and then work on the next thing on my list and the hell with the rest of it until its turn.

But, for today, I'm going to wallow in a bit of Self Pity and Lonesome, watch my new Wizard of Oz dvds and try to forget that my son won't be back for another six months...

It's Over

Dec. 27th, 2009 05:14 am
ostarella: (Thoughts)
My son left about 20 minutes ago. My brother's driving him up to the airport. We had a lot of fun the last week, watching Lost episodes until 2 or 3 o'clock in the morning, rearranging the dining room so we could put up the tree and decorate. My brother came down Wednesday night so we had the whole family together for three full days - playing Hero Quest for hours on end and every few minutes chasing Fang out of the Christmas tree. To him, it was cat heaven with all the tempting bright things hanging from the branches. And we ended up not going to my niece's house, just because the weather was so unpredictable.

But now, of course, comes the hard part. It always seems like life is just on "temporary mode" when John's not here and only gets into gear when he's home. But I'm thinking about my New Year's resolutions more seriously - and realistically. I've gotten pictures of RVs posted above my desk - to remind me of why I need to do the stuff on my To Do List. It's just too easy to get bogged down in the day to day crapola or overwhelmed by the sheer amount of things to do - so having those pictures up will remind me to step back, think about that goal - and then work on the next thing on my list and the hell with the rest of it until its turn.

But, for today, I'm going to wallow in a bit of Self Pity and Lonesome, watch my new Wizard of Oz dvds and try to forget that my son won't be back for another six months...
ostarella: (Fang)
The house is currently quiet. The dogs are sleeping in the living room and Fang is sleeping in the porch. I did put a heater in there (watch my electric bill zoom!) but it's just too cold, really. At least for my guilt level as I sit in the house :p

Fang would not stay in the porch today. If I left the door closed, he sat on the screen door and cried, or - worse yet - sat in front of the picture window looking absolutely pathetically lonely. And cried. So a good share of my day was spent with him asleep on my lap, guarding him against those canines from hell I call my pets. If he did get down on the floor, one of two things happened - either a race for under the furniture with one or both dogs after him (and me after them!) or he was hopping up on the dining room table. He is learning that that's a quick way to get both a squirt from the water bottle and a banishment to the closed porch. At one point he was curled up on the dining room chair under the table, and it was quite some time before Petey discovered him there. But I'm hopeful that they're all getting used to each - and probably will be best buddies the day after he goes to Canada.

Took some flowers out to my dad's grave this afternoon - of course, it waited for the hardest deluge of rain until I got out there. But it was his 100th birthday and I wanted to acknowledge it - and had a little heart-to-heart with him while I sat in the truck. I noticed someone (probably my niece) had left a little statue on my mom's (to-be-replaced) new stone and a plastic rose on my dad's service star, so that was nice.

Making the final arrangements to go to the Comic Con in Winnipeg the last weekend of this month. First con I'll be going to with "buds" so it promises to be much wilder than the others I've gone to. And the unemployment got another extension, a place in town is looking for workers so if I got that I could literally walk to work - so things are easing on that front. Plus I made some other decisions about things that, really, were just putting stress on my for no unearthly reason. I think that's why I like going out to the cemetery and "discussing" things. I know pretty much what both my folks would say about things - I just have to make myself hear them. (I know - here come the guys in the white coats! :p)

So anyway - Fang may or may not come back in for a while after his supper, but once he's "in bed" for the night, I'm going to work on the housecleaning and a few other things that weren't done because of this kitten in my lap. I guess there's worse reasons for not doing stuff. :D
ostarella: (Fang)
The house is currently quiet. The dogs are sleeping in the living room and Fang is sleeping in the porch. I did put a heater in there (watch my electric bill zoom!) but it's just too cold, really. At least for my guilt level as I sit in the house :p

Fang would not stay in the porch today. If I left the door closed, he sat on the screen door and cried, or - worse yet - sat in front of the picture window looking absolutely pathetically lonely. And cried. So a good share of my day was spent with him asleep on my lap, guarding him against those canines from hell I call my pets. If he did get down on the floor, one of two things happened - either a race for under the furniture with one or both dogs after him (and me after them!) or he was hopping up on the dining room table. He is learning that that's a quick way to get both a squirt from the water bottle and a banishment to the closed porch. At one point he was curled up on the dining room chair under the table, and it was quite some time before Petey discovered him there. But I'm hopeful that they're all getting used to each - and probably will be best buddies the day after he goes to Canada.

Took some flowers out to my dad's grave this afternoon - of course, it waited for the hardest deluge of rain until I got out there. But it was his 100th birthday and I wanted to acknowledge it - and had a little heart-to-heart with him while I sat in the truck. I noticed someone (probably my niece) had left a little statue on my mom's (to-be-replaced) new stone and a plastic rose on my dad's service star, so that was nice.

Making the final arrangements to go to the Comic Con in Winnipeg the last weekend of this month. First con I'll be going to with "buds" so it promises to be much wilder than the others I've gone to. And the unemployment got another extension, a place in town is looking for workers so if I got that I could literally walk to work - so things are easing on that front. Plus I made some other decisions about things that, really, were just putting stress on my for no unearthly reason. I think that's why I like going out to the cemetery and "discussing" things. I know pretty much what both my folks would say about things - I just have to make myself hear them. (I know - here come the guys in the white coats! :p)

So anyway - Fang may or may not come back in for a while after his supper, but once he's "in bed" for the night, I'm going to work on the housecleaning and a few other things that weren't done because of this kitten in my lap. I guess there's worse reasons for not doing stuff. :D

Birthday

Jan. 14th, 2009 07:19 am
ostarella: (Smiles)
Yesterday was my 54th birthday. I took the day off from guilt. I took a long hot shower, lay wrapped in a blanket watching movies, did some writing, and didn't allow myself to think about the dishes I hadn't washed, or the dusting I hadn't done, or the fact that I still haven't taken down the Christmas tree. (I kinda like having its lights on while the rest of the house is dark at night.)

And I wrote up my funeral arrangements.

Not as morbid a thing to do on one's birthday as it would seem. I've always looked at my birthday as basically my New Year's Day. The day I sit back and reflect on what I've done, what I didn't. Think about the things I should have done and then move on, dismissing regrets and making plans.

And one of those things I should have done is make plans for my demise. Considering the health issues over the last few months, it was the sensible, practical and caring thing to do. Save my family the headaches and stress we went through when my parents died.

So I now have life insurance selected to pay off any debts (and the costs of getting rid of my body) and my wishes are all written down - the funeral home I want to handle things, the cremation, the memorial service, where to scatter my ashes. Even the music and the kinds of flowers I want. Tells my family where my important papers are, who to contact. The only thing I got stuck on was who to ask to give the eulogy. I guess because I'm not even sure I want one. I'm not really having a "funeral" as such. I think I want it to be more of a kaffee-klatsch. Of course, considering the relationship I have with my ever-shrinking family, and that most of my friends are scattered over the four corners of the earth, a "standard" funeral would probably be overkill anyway. But it's said that funerals are for the living, not the dead, so there needs to be something, I guess.

Another idea is to give my own eulogy via DVD. Of course, that wouldn't really be a eulogy as much as my "last words" to my family. And I kinda like that idea. A chance to say all the sappy things I'd never say in "real life", even though I've wanted to. But we're of solid, stoic Norwegian/German/Scots stock, so displays of emotion are... well, discouraged. I guess that's another good reason for funerals. It gives people the "excuse" to let it all hang out.

So anyway, I feel better having that accomplished. I took my time, thought about things, changed my mind and then thought some more. At least now it's done and I can send a copy to my brother and my son, so they'll know in advance what to do. No surprises, no stressing over the necessities.

Peace of mind. That's nice.

Birthday

Jan. 14th, 2009 07:19 am
ostarella: (Smiles)
Yesterday was my 54th birthday. I took the day off from guilt. I took a long hot shower, lay wrapped in a blanket watching movies, did some writing, and didn't allow myself to think about the dishes I hadn't washed, or the dusting I hadn't done, or the fact that I still haven't taken down the Christmas tree. (I kinda like having its lights on while the rest of the house is dark at night.)

And I wrote up my funeral arrangements.

Not as morbid a thing to do on one's birthday as it would seem. I've always looked at my birthday as basically my New Year's Day. The day I sit back and reflect on what I've done, what I didn't. Think about the things I should have done and then move on, dismissing regrets and making plans.

And one of those things I should have done is make plans for my demise. Considering the health issues over the last few months, it was the sensible, practical and caring thing to do. Save my family the headaches and stress we went through when my parents died.

So I now have life insurance selected to pay off any debts (and the costs of getting rid of my body) and my wishes are all written down - the funeral home I want to handle things, the cremation, the memorial service, where to scatter my ashes. Even the music and the kinds of flowers I want. Tells my family where my important papers are, who to contact. The only thing I got stuck on was who to ask to give the eulogy. I guess because I'm not even sure I want one. I'm not really having a "funeral" as such. I think I want it to be more of a kaffee-klatsch. Of course, considering the relationship I have with my ever-shrinking family, and that most of my friends are scattered over the four corners of the earth, a "standard" funeral would probably be overkill anyway. But it's said that funerals are for the living, not the dead, so there needs to be something, I guess.

Another idea is to give my own eulogy via DVD. Of course, that wouldn't really be a eulogy as much as my "last words" to my family. And I kinda like that idea. A chance to say all the sappy things I'd never say in "real life", even though I've wanted to. But we're of solid, stoic Norwegian/German/Scots stock, so displays of emotion are... well, discouraged. I guess that's another good reason for funerals. It gives people the "excuse" to let it all hang out.

So anyway, I feel better having that accomplished. I took my time, thought about things, changed my mind and then thought some more. At least now it's done and I can send a copy to my brother and my son, so they'll know in advance what to do. No surprises, no stressing over the necessities.

Peace of mind. That's nice.

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